really really yearning to ride my bike

I just finished a book by ted dekker, a man called blessed. needless to say, it spoke right to my processes. some glances for you too:


"giving up? you mean in your world monks are expected to give things up?
we sont toss up a few coins or a mercedes in exchange for the kingdom.
we give our lives. and we gain him.
we give up the unreality of meaningless pursuits and we find god.
there is no greater disaster in a spiritual life than to be immersed in a false reality.
we abandon the false reality for the sake of a greater reality.
knowing god."

"you were saying that anyone may become a monk here by chasing after the creator.
and how do you do this? how do you chase?"
"the pearl of great price" the monk said immediately as if everyone should know it intimately.
"sell everything to buy the pearl. to do so you must first desire the pearl" caleb said.
"yes, then you also know that desire doesnt come from the mind, but from the heart. the hope that burns under the ashes of our poverty"

"but really poverty is not about living without. living without can be a fruitless death full of misery. poverty is about needing.
its clearing space in your heart so that God can fill it"

"so you have faced some adversity", elijah said, still stroking his chin. "that is good. adversity introduces a man to himself. and we must know ourselves before we can know what needs to die"

"your beliefs are wrong. you say that you may not be living up to your beliefs, but by definition, this is impossible. we always live up or down to our beliefs.
beliefs are the rails which govern our lives. our trains roll on them wheter we like it or not.
if your train is not rolling on the set of rails which you claim are yours, its because you have diverted your train to another set of rails -these are your true beliefs now, not the rails you left. unless you first understand this, you can never find what you seek"

"you must remember that the spiritual life is first of all life. its something to be lived. but like all other life it, too, can grow sick and die when rooted from its proper element. perhaps you have been uprooted.
living in a monastry or a church or a desert hardly counts as walking in the kingdom"

"be bold. cowardive keeps man double minded,
hesitating between two worlds. true faith abandons one option for other.
hesitation is the death of faith."

"when you learn to ride a bike, you dont just learn that you ought to ride it;
you actually attempt to ride it
and then you do ride it.
belief works the same way.
im learning to believe, i am riding my bike"